Perhaps I'm too late... But, my mother is not perfect... I honestly don't know if I should share all of the bad actions and decisions she had made. But there is a long story short.

She borne me when she was 18, therefore she did not finish college, also she was rebellious girl with my grandma. She tried to live on her own, but she could not.

My dad left her, for unknown reasons for me, but that has made my life harder. Anyway, at least we were okay, she had a decent income because she knew how to work; she is a hard-working women.

At some point of her life, she decides to have another kid, a half-brother for me, she gets with another man. And then, less than decade later, she borne 2 more kids, 2 half-brothers, again. At this point, her life started to going in decline, and it still ongoing.

And it was recently when I discovered this. My mother, to whom I have been losing respect, does not know how manage money. The money she could use to support herself and my half-brothers, the taxes refund from my social security, has been spent on bullshit. Expensive clothes, unnecessary material things, and mostly for her. And of course, she also asks for support from the governement, stamps, to sustain her mistakes, my half-brothers who are not culpable.

There is a lot of shit more I want to say.I want to relieve all the feelings I have toward her, and I honestly need to talk about it, but I want to keep the little love I feel for her.