[MOD] Official Introduction Thread for Round 16

Hey guys. I've never done this before. I'm a little late, but I'd like to join. I'm a 27/f and I've been struggling with a really reckless depression for the past 6 months or so. My husband is working full-time, and he suggested that I take a semester off of school in order to seek treatment and to give myself a break. I started off the break optimistically-- signed up for a gym membership, enrolled in a ceramics course, and started taking care of the house a little better. Despite this, I wake up every morning feeling crummy. Other than cleaning up periodically, I've really stopped functioning. I'm just an emotional wreck most days, shifting from one numbing activity to the other (internet, TV, reading, alcohol, emotional eating, seeing friends when possible). I was seeing a student counselor through the university, but since I'm not an active student, I'm not eligible for those services anymore.

I want to feel better. I want a lifestyle change. I know I'm capable of doing this, but I need tangible, short-term and longterm goals. So, here we go.

<b> Stats </b> * 27 F * 5'7 3/4 *158 lbs * I ran a full marathon once, but I don't really know anything about working out regularly or properly. * I -hypothetically- understand what a good diet is. It's just never something I've been able to stick to. * I rely on alcohol and benadryl to sleep every night. This needs to stop.

<b> Round 16 Fitness Goals </b> * Target weight: 145 (-18) * Work out 3x a week, weight lifting and cardio * Learn how to lift weights/work out properly * Learn how to maintain healthy diet (I'm assuming high protein, high fiber, low sugar? Sugar as in simple carbs, dairy, all the bad -oses.) * Fall asleep unaided, at a reasonable hour, and sleep through the night. (I'd like the nightmares to stop, but I don't know how much I can control that.)

<b>Round 16 Mental Health Goals</b> * Attend all scheduled doctors appointments * Find a therapist who can help me, who I click with * Get several psychiatrists recommendations * Find an anti-depressant that works for me, if recommended * No self-harm. Reach out to people instead of self-harming. * Reduce alcohol intake.

<b> Sprint 1 Goals </b> * Call insurance company to find covered psychiatrists, set appointments (where I am, you often have to wait a month to see them) * Attend therapy * Ween self to 1 benadryl and 1 alcoholic drink a night * Go to the Gym 3x a week * Set appointments with a personal trainer who can help me identify what I need to work on * Find a good guide. A book that is a couch-to-fit fitness guide. * Address feelings as I feel them through self-talk, journaling. Use affirmations. * Spend as much time with husband and friends as possible, do things that make me feel beautiful, hug people more. * Catch myself when I'm thinking/feeling negatively and face my thoughts. Don't let them loop. * Track progress in journal and calendar

I've never been very good at having an online presence, or participating in a community. Nor am I very good at asking for help. But I'd like to try.

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