Today I turn 24. I start a new chapter in my life - I start a new job, hopefully one I'll be at for a while and I'm very happy about this. Whenever one thing goes good for me, other things seem to go wrong.
Somehow I managed to gain 10 pounds over my two week vacation. I've never even lost weight that fast. I try to not care about minor fluctuations in my weight as a mental health thing, but gaining 10 pounds is kind of a big deal. I was even exercising almost every day when eating around maintenance.
One of my big goals for myself was to be at the top end of my goal range by my birthday. I was two pounds away, now I'm back to where I was at the beginning of the year, like the last 3 months of blood sweat and tears was worth nothing in the end. I'm more likely to weigh more at the end of the 90 days than when I started .-.
I don't know how to not be a fat failure. I feel like my body and my brain are broken and will keep me stuck at being a fat loser.
Only thing that's been helping is music therapy. Worried I'm wearing my boyfriend out. I painted my nails rainbow for my birthday too.
Emotional check in:
[] Wake up 8
[] Work 9-6
[] Exercise?
[] Sleep by 11
Bonus list: Zumba, Tai chi, yoga, tai chi form, daoist books, buddhist books, league, monitor internet problems
// Chains: MFP[2]; Meditate [2]; IF [2]; No binging [2]
Dailies:
[] Morning routine (sun salutation, teeth), log calories, clean at least 15 min, exercise at least 1 hr, Bedtime routine (tea, teeth, sink the chi, meditate)
[] Daily Mantras: "I love myself unconditionally right now" ; "I am beautiful, inside and out, and I deserve the same kindness as I show others."
Weekly:
On radar:
Food projects: choco/pb mini protein cheesecakes, healthy brownies
Sprint 3 Goals:
Biggest change for sprint 3: Figure out how to work food and exercise into my 9-5. Limit snacking at work, plan my meals better in advance (weekly shop?). It's getting warmer, so exercising with the long-haired dog might get harder, not easier.
