Hey OP, I can relate to your post, I'm in a self-improvement cocoon as well. Had some injuries and let myself get obese over time.

I respect your politics, I'd agree with the sentiment that women and many men don't give a fuck about your personal political views -- but if you are not just arm-chairing it up on the internet, I say you are passionate about it so fuck the haters.

These are some of my own views coming through, I consider myself a bit of an ascetic, and I think marketing and social programming are evil. Until my early 20's I think I had a lot of beliefs that you hold that I would consider now "neckbeardy" that I changed and have become an overall happier, more valuable person.

• I developed a "hatred" of women as an excuse for not feeling like I was able to get one to fuck me.

• I thought other people were stupid for not relating to intellectual pursuits that I found value in. I was looking for validation of my own ego that I was a smart man. Feeling superior to others made me feel good about myself. Now, I know that I can use my own understanding of something to help other people understand it.

• I used to feel isolated, and that other people didn't get me. The truth was, you have to be pretty fucking narcissistic to think there is something wrong with everyone but you; I wasn't a relatable person, I just wanted to sit on my high horse and look down my nose at people from my comfort zone.

There was no utility whatsoever in those original behaviors, just a defense mechanism thrown up to keep my fragile ego from being bruised. Something there that doesn't love a wall.

People have value man, that's the rule not the exception. If you keep going, and harden yourself from being emotionally affected by people, the world becomes this wide ocean of possibilities and you've removed a self-imposed limitation on yourself.

tl;dr, delete facebook, quit jacking your brain off on the internet, and check your ego. You got this bro.