3 days in a row and i wake up and cant go back to sleep despite listening white noise while sleeping.. and what makes me sad is.. no one understands me.. even this subreddit too.. It frustrate me.. bermula dari stress krn dinas kantor lama tahun lalu.. pas balik ke jakarta, ngekos kok selalu kebangun jam segini padahal biasanya cuek bisa tidur.. sampe akhirnya gonta ganti kos dan tetep aja kebangun jam segini juga.. taunya pas pindah ke apartemen lebih parah lagi karena suaranya dari jam 3-jam 5 pagi. I mean like i struggle a lot untuk bayar dp dan cicilan and this is what i get every morning. Akhirnya mutusin pulang ke rumah dengan pikiran dulu pas kecil-kuliah bisa tidur nyenyak, and guess what.. i cannot sleep well too. Akhirnya sampe dimana i able to sleep with headset everynight.. it's not very comfortable but it's working.. but right now it's not working at all..

For me.. sleep is important because i need clear mind and a lot of energy to maintain my mood.. once i run out of energy usually my suicidal tendencies showing..