I know everyone here has said that they’re sorry for your loss and I sure as hell am but I also want to say thank you. Thank you for being brave enough to to share with us. Not turn this into a pity post for me but literally right before I saw this post about an hour I was done. I had gotten everything prepared and was browsing some of my favorite subs before it did it. I don’t want to trigger any suicidal thoughts or anxiety so I won’t go into any detail but I was going to inject a lethal amount of some very strong drugs and just wait for my heart to stop. I had a program on my computer so it would send a text to my family thanking them for the great lengths they took trying to help me and I had some really deep and heartfelt conversations with my closest friends hoping their last memory of me was good and I didn’t hurt them. I think I’m going to check myself into an institution in the morning once I go to sleep and clear my head. Anyone considering hurting themselves or others please seek professional help. I’m certain there are people you care about you. Just think about them don’t do it for literally any reason. I’m sorry if this rambles and doesn’t properly do what I want it to but at least I tried. You are loved. If not by anyone else I love you. I’ll try to respond or fix things but I really need to sleep. I love you guys