Thanks Quierta, i think i will reactivate it then. It will be hard, as every time you receive a message (women get a lot, as i am sure you can imagine!) i am hopeful it is from him, so, was thinking it may delay my healing. But i will give it a shot, and be sure to stay off his profile, as it gives you a notification whenever someone looks at your profile. That is the other thing, him NOT looking at my profile upsets me, he used to alllll the time! Glad you say not to assume he blocked everything, i hope he didnt, i guess i assumed he would as he went to the lengths to block me on the dating website, which really said to me "I dont want to hear from you!!" , so naturally i assumed he would do it across all fronts. Thank you for helping me look at things in a different way. HUGE lessons all around this week, and despite the heartache, i am so very grateful for the growth and lessons in myself and about others. I just hope it is not at the cost of losing him totally, i was not that bad, i wish he would be more understanding and forgiving....