Okay. First up give yourself a good shake. Second, this comes from a person older than you (I have to assume given the juvenile nature of this relationship). You are young and this feels like the end of the world, but please breathe and end this toxicity. You are abusing her and she, in turn, is doing the same. Both of you are just wallowing in this silliness.

Write this down- what is meant for you will simplify your life, not make it unnecessarily complicated. This is all balderdash. You will eventually go on to have a woman in your life who shares your basic values and goals in life. Relationships are complicated, but movies and shows have made you unncessarily glorify chasing after and falling at the feet of your so-called crush or friend. Don't do this.

Clear this fog before your eyes and look clearly. What are you even doing? Chasing this person who may be a Miss Universe for all I care. She may be bringing the dead back to life or curing cancer and helping orphans. So what? Which one person who isn't voluntarily coming to you is worth this chase and surrendering of self-respect?

Lastly, a lot of people have gone through this. They get up, dust themselves off and go on to have respectable lives and marry people who don't come with two plane loads of complications. You need to do the same. Regain some self-respect, be a man and go out into the world. Stop crying over a girl. You clearly weren't meant to be . AND THAT IS OKAY!

Make yourself proud. Good luck!

What's meant to be will find a way, champ! :)