I am starting to lose faith at finding love and it makes me feel so numb inside...

I've had a couple of broken relationships most of which were probably due to me blindly following with my heart instead of my head... Yeah I know its stupid but that's who I am...

I have been tricked, made fun of, used and then discarded, played/toyed with...

I am not gonna lie, I did have my own faults too and I do not consider myself as perfect... but the majority of my relationships are what is listed above...

Now, I'm afraid of seeking love because I kept on thinking that I might just get hurt again...

I just... want... you know... the feeling of wanting to be longed for by someone...