So, I always had depression. When I was 11, I had a series of existential crises and it lead to me being very dysphoric about everything.

The only thing is, who is to say the dairy is the culprit here? I never had a mother, my early childhood was always difficult for multiple reasons. Am I cold, short-tempered, and narcissitic for those reasons? Or other reasons?

To piggyback off your theory, I went on an SSRI about 3 months ago and the difference has been dramatic. I feel SOOO much better every day. And you're right, I was anxious. Not necessarily anxious because of people or anything, just anxious about life and existence in general.

I have very strong political views that I mostly keep bottled up. I truly believe that certain... people... are holding back humanity. And I will leave it at that. I have my own science and logic backing up these views and am convinced everyone else is just virtue signalling etc.

I also have a drug problem, but recently I have been sobering up and I am very proud to say that.

Is it due to dairy? Who knows. Is it a factor? Almost definitely. I always wonder what would happen if I changed my diet but who is to say which diet would be best for me? Maybe a keto diet would be best for me, maybe it'd make everything worse. Maybe eating pure meat like Jordan Peterson would help. There's no way of knowing unless I try it and that's just something I don't have patience for.