Saving this so I can show it to my sister and she can understand that our dad’s trauma isn’t an excuse for this neither is my mother’s but since we are both our parents child she’ll say that well you still defend our mother and stay with her and do this for her and still seek her love despite me being used to this and it being a cycle of abuse that I have been in for my whole life so she can’t really use that against me in this argument because it isn’t something I can just control and be out of in a snap since I don’t have any better options, I still acknowledge she’s a bad person and hate her for what she does to me but I also love her and those are the confusing feelings that you deal with being raised by people we’re NOT meant to have children