My "crush" had given me a chance with her. During that period of time, I was happy. Even though it had ended, I had felt what it was like to have a person I could be serious with, I'm the type of person that rarely takes anything seriously, and having shared a a relationship with her where we could openly discuss about the more serious matters had seriously made me happy. She's also changed me for the better, she made me realized that there's a merit to the phrase "treat others the way you wish to be treated," 

    Before that I had been living in a situation where I was somewhat sadistic, and would often antagonize others. Slowly, I started noticing her, and before I knew it, I became infatuated with her. I adopted a persona of "Mr. Nice Guy," because I didn't want my personality and behavior leaving a bad impression on her. Overtime, as I kept up this charade, this mask that I had donned had begun to morph me into what I had tried so hard to become, and now, having turned my entire view on life around, I can definitely say that I am much happier than I was before. We had many things in common, so much that a mutual friend of ours had once said that we were practically the same person, just with opposite genders. That single statement was what I thought to have been a testament to our relationship. 

    Two weeks ago, due to reasons I would like to keep private, she chose to end the relationship with me. I had been devastated, for an entire week, nothing was able to cheer me up, songs that had been revolved around troubling relationships with girls had suddenly become very apparent to me (Drake's Hotline Bling, Bieber's Sorry). I wasn't sure if it was because I had just became prone to this sort of social media, but before, I had no idea how much music these days revolved around relationships. As I've said before, even though our relationship was over, I was still glad that it had happened. She made me happy, even if it was just for a little while, and had made me a better person. I'm sorry for the wall of text, but this had troubled me for days, I felt the need to get it off my chest, and this just so happened to have been the best option given to me.