When I was arrested for drug possession in mid 2016. It hasn't actually been long at all, but it has really fucked my life up.

I got onto deferred disposition, which basically means I don't do drugs or alcohol for a year, along with getting a substance abuse and mental health evaluation.

It's sort of weird that this event was maybe supposed to straighten me out, or that leading a "law abiding life" is supposed to help me. It makes me sound immature as fuck, but my quality of life was way better when I was allowed to smoke weed or drink after a long day of school or work, but now I just sit there. And that's just the "boredom" aspect, I have never been more stressed out in my entire life. I chipped my tooth from biting my nails so much from the sheer stress (which I cannot pay to fix), nor can I pay the hospital bills from when they decided to hospitalize me "for my safety". I never used to have nightmares or night terrors, now that shit is almost daily.

I actually would've been better off if they threw me into a jail cell after my arrest. I actually would've been better off had I taken the charges, and paid a $300 fine. I thought I was depressed when I was using drugs and alcohol, but this is much worse.