Got myself kicked out of russian conscription army through mental hospital getting a fake minimal army-dodging diagnosis. Before that worked in a military OR while being hospitalized with a heart condition (there is not enough funding in russian hospitals so they use hospitalized conscript patient soldiers to do a lot of day-to-day mainteance and minor medical work by faking their medical papers making them stay in hosptials a lot longer than they have to), without any medical training.

I usually worked in gynocology or surgery where it's relatively relaxed but once I had to help out with an emergency operation. The patient was an old guy who had a lot of brown solid ckunks of.. blood taken out of him. Internal bleeding, or something. He didn't make it. The are two things I remember from that day: finding out that a human body contains some acid-green-colored liquid and that dead people make for a lot of cleaning the OR duty.

In mental, had to "help out" by doing day-to-day task carrying food, collecting matresses, dirty psycho clothing, cleaning etc. Same understaffment problems, you help out if you want a good fake diagnosis instead of being announced of sound mind. Patients are not being cared about in there that much, since they fake their symptoms a lot, and since they are mentally challenged, a lot of them do so unknowingly. No diet for EXTRA OVERLY FAT 200kg guy - he dies a couple days after admission. Old guy says his heart hurts - nurse tells him to sod off - he dies that evening. I didn't have a lot of sympathy for these guys but still this wasn't too pleasant to see.

Among corpses carried there stands out the fat guy's corpse that I took with 5 other army-dodgers to coroner, and then his opened-then-stitched-back corpse to the morgue. It was directed by an old dumb nurse-host.. err.. she handles clothing, supplies and such, not a real nurse, she had us lay down the fat guy on a table where they prepare them for getting into coffins, the table broke, the guy fell down, blood and guts poured out of the shoddily-stitched holes the coroner left. People laughed standing above the dead guy.

I had to question what that whole experience did to my morality this time.

Some people freak out at the sign of dead, guts, blood and stuff. After seeing so much of that on the Internet I didn't feel a thing when I saw that IRL.