I was sitting at my computer while coding. I had gotten deep into my meditation practice - at least 6 months of an hour+ consistent daily meditation. At that point your sense of perception changes. You can feel more than you normally would. I had full body pleasure every minute of every day ie jhana, piti, sukkha.

Well when you pay attention to that pleasure, it feels like it’s composed of smaller vibrations. Pay even more attention and more vibrations arise. To the point where your body feels like sand.

Then I realized my body is actually “hollow”. I realized I didn’t exist physically. I’m not the body, or anywhere inside it. I’m nowhere to be found. Not anywhere in space-time. Non-existent. Nothing. There’s no other way to describe it.

I didn’t get much benefits off of that realization but now I know what all of these modern religions are talking about when they say “god”. It’s not an entity or person. It’s that experience of nothingness, realizing you’re nothing yet everything in existence at the same time.