First I want to apologize because I started writing this without even getting through the whole message. Since high school Ive been drinking or smoking everyday until I got out of college. I will say getting out of college was the best thing that happened to me because peer pressure REALLY works. Ive been under drug induced psychosis and diagnosed with bipolar and schizophrenia. I will say Its been about two years since Ive broke my habits and honestly I don’t think I can hang out with my old friends. Im saying this to say I completely understand you. I know you said that you may be able to handle it but look at the risks vs reward. What is there to gain from this risk besides a good time that has a high chance of effecting the future for an unspecified amount of time. Personally I know one situation can send me over the edge and as someone who has been down that hellish road and by the grace of God alone cane back. I beg you to make the right decision for yourself. One thing I always tell myself is “Do future me a favor”.