I care about the absence of her supplying my ego with admiration and gifts. She’s my child who loans me money, defends me against those who disagree with my behavior. Looks out for me if I’m sick and caters to me at a whim. She can be a spit fire though.. and as a narcissist I simply can’t take criticism, opinionated thoughts, fluctuations in tone of voice, or perceived disrespect. Even though she’s mostly generous to me, the slightest hint of judgement from her makes me loose my marbles. Unless shes 100% compliant to needs and agreeable in our conversation, I have little to no desire to have more than a surface conversation with her. Over the years she’s learned to say and do exactly as I tell her, and not until recently has she started pulling away. She’s seeing a therapist and I have No empathy or concern for how I affected her life. Maybe one day, but not today. I actually think she owes me more than I’ll ever owe her. I have other kids, so no love is lost, she’s just the one that provides most of my supply. Ehh…She’ll probably be back, and when she does I’ll make her pay for the abandonment to my ego. I have nothing to apologize about and wouldn’t change a thing. Balls in her court, but don’t come expecting empathy.