Huh, i guess you just wrote the story of my life i'm 22 y/m too and have the same problems i couldn't finish high school because socializing and the crowds, i don't even know how i started to feel like this. I used to ignore these things and always came up with excuse's for why i didn't do this or that. I still have friends and i used to go out and socialize but after my family moved out i couldn't do anything anymore i can't go shopping i can't go out to meet my friends i can't do anything outside my home without thinking that the people will judge me for it or that i will mess it up i feel really pathetic and my family doesn't understand that i can't help the way i am, they think i'm being lazy and want to live like this and if they pushed me hard enough i can be cured. They good people and they love but they can't really understand that i can't help it. i even thought about suicide as way out but i couldn't do that to my family, I know how much they love me and especially my mom and how it would ruin her and my family if i did it , i want to go out i want to date i want to love too but i can't. i'm normal guy for god sake i am not ugly nor fat no one ignore me when i talk or make fun of me, no one look at me with sympathy and yet i can't get rid of these feelings, so i decided to ignore all this and just try to enjoy my life as much as possible, i was never internet person i used to just sit with my friends at cafe shop chatting and having fun lil football, some cyber games and that all and when i couldn't do any of these things anymore i turned to the internet and i really found few things that made life bearable. like playing games , watching tv shows / movies browsing funny websites (9gag) and recently books (and damn if i didn't became a book addict i read 1 or 2 books a day now) they can pull your mind away from all this , you can also look for a friend who can share these things with you , one of my friends after i moved out kept contact with me on the internet and i was happy to find someone to share some of these things with , even though he doesn't read books we still play online game together talk about movies share music blabling about deep shit and the weather xD, having him really helped a lot. all these things won't cure you but they can make life bearable.