thanks. i would love to see that facebook post if you don't mind messaging it or posting it.
i hope the humor comes back. and the social skills. i had kind of a mentally abusive best friend from my childhood, i know and love his parents, even my uncle who lives far away remembers him, etc. but he became verbally abusive when drunk in college, and would never apologize after. this led me to isolate myself in my apartment, going straight to my room. and i told the people we were going to live with the next year that he shouldn't live with us. then that year he started partying way too hard and crashed mentally, was acting pretty insane. he eventually calmed down and had to move in his own place after getting in a fight with his new roommates, and then he wanted to hang out with me a lot again. i was pretty distant to spending time with him, because his values had contradicted mine so strongly. but in time i missed him and made efforts to do things with him like play tennis, things that had no chance of drinking or smoking. or just to keep in touch. but i haven't seen him in over a year, and its tough idk why i think about it all the time. i had other best friends, one who was from even a younger age in childhood but i always had an inferiority complex compared to him as he was really good at sports, popular, outgoing, got the girls, etc, and i felt like he didn't value our friendship enough and i felt it was tough to be around him cus i was kinda submissive to him always. and i solidified / re-made a best friend during his last semester in college, but since he lives far away its hard to keep in touch with him / i dont know exactly what to talk to him about. my one other best friend from childhood who i stayed close with in college (even tho he went somewhere else) is still in the same city as me but i haven't talked to him much about depression, because when i did he didnt seem to take it too seriously. he is a great friend but is more intrigued by whats happening in the moment and talking about that then dwelling on the past or feelings. i think the first 3 guys i mentioned shared depression at some point in their life so it was easier to relate to them about it, and my friend(s) who are still at home haven't really experienced it so i don't want to open up again and use them as a support system.
tl;dr: that long paragraph was pretty irrelevant. What did you do feel like you're coming out of your depression? I wish you the best of luck. And if I could see that post I would find it fascinating.