“I wish it was socially acceptable to die.”

This is a most irrelevant and totally asinine thing to say. Death is your destiny. It’s the destiny of all things, even the universe as a whole. Everything must come to an end. Every single thing. It is your destiny to live if you exist and to die if you live. This concept has existed since the moment time began and it’ll exist when time reaches its eventual, eternal end, and then it won’t, because nothing shall exist beyond existence itself.

Here is the bottom line: You give too much credence to social etiquette, too much thought for the asinine and the irrelevant. The only advice, herein, I might offer, is that you accept all you are and all that you know and move on. One way or the other. No point in continuously sitting in that mud hole of yours, is there? Just grab your sack and live or die.