Some background information, i graduated last year and had to work some side jobs before i got this programming job at one of the best companies in my country around 3 months ago. I basically only got to work in the office for 2 weeks and then we started working from home so most of my on boarding process happened on skype.

In these 3 months, i feel like I've learned a lot to be honest but at the same time I'm. so. drained.

We basically work 10 hours daily, and i barely get time to relax or read or do whatever to rest. I'm not sure if I'm cut out for this field. it makes me feel so stressed out and tired.

I'm always thrown in the middle of an ongoing project with some meetings where everything is went over fast. so i don't get to see the whole process and it takes me more time to get the hangs of things. even though they never complain about it, it makes me feel so bad and anxious.

My coworkers aren't that bad, they're helpful sometimes, i even can see some of them becoming my friends in the future, but I've noticed that they're overworked. i feel that for the salary that we get we are supposed to give more to this job.

with everything happening in the world, I'm reluctant to even consider quitting seeing that i know first hand how hard it is to land a job where i live.

I've dealt with anxiety before but not to this extent. 3 weeks into this job, and i started to wake up sometimes on the verge of tears.

don't get me wrong, i don't mind working hard, but I'd rather a slow paced calm job, where i can learn and grow without it affecting my mental and physical health.