Bro, I feel you! I literally watched my wife die in 2018. (cancer) She was 53 and our son was 10. About a week ago I had a terrible panic attack thinking about my own premature death and leaving my 14yo with no parents. It really is a terrible feeling. This is what I have been doing; I have a simple job that gives me no stress, I don’t make much money but I never really cared about that anyway. I try and stay as positive as I can every single day. I wake up and think “I want to make today a good day, be positive and try and help people.” When I come home from work I always smile to my son. I always try and be positive when I get home. I just really try and love. I try to recognize beauty. We can only control so much. We will try to stay healthy and live a positive life. Please don’t worry too much. We get one shot at this. Let’s try and make a better world for our kids while we are still here. I really feel for you! Sending you a virtual hug!