Thought

There are those voices which are to the building up of those who would receive their words, then there are those which are only to the breaking down of another. The difference between anger and indignation is that the former is reactionary, blinding, and usually untoward the proper character, the latter is responsive, having clarity, and is consistent with the character. The exact context does not change the heart of the speaker.

For those who would not flee from upon lofty towers in the shadow of my wings, I breathe a fiery breath. But it is because you only harm yourself. My ego? There is nothing you could possibly say to affect any of my ego after what I freely disclosed from the start. Do not think you will harm that one who is come to the field of battle painted in their own blood. But have your vengeance if you must, your last word, and your spiteful immaturity... as if I am harassing you with patience and kindness and wisdom. I am responding because you insult me and continue you path of self-destruction.. What might you think I am getting out of this, besides your toxicity? No.. you are offended that I think myself to have wisdom, and and worse, to be morally upstanding. And—as evident by the sudden and feeble "hypocrite" slander—you are even more offended that you cannot substantially show me to be otherwise. Not beyond exaggerating the most petty thing, that is. And why should I be any less than I am so hard fought to be?

Your issue with me is not that I think myself to be any better than you or anyone else, rather, it is that you are afraid you are not as great as you could be. And I would have to agree with that, because I surely believe that you could do better every day.

Why should you be bothered by some prosperity of your fellow man? You will never impove yourself by looking for deficiency in others. Truly, you should only compare yourself to your former self (and please, do not say you do not need to improve yourself, that is a most arrogant thought). You began on this thread with an attempt to bring another person down, beneath your own supposed righteousness, because that is much less unpleasant than acknowledging and addressing your own personal deficiencies. But the things we try to find in others are what we will find in ourselves. I am righteous and justified because I try to find righteousness and justification in you. This is why you are so upset (inb4: ha! Im so totally chill im not at all bothered.. friend, you are clearly perturbed). I mean presently. Listen to me, because I allow myself to be better than you are allowing yourself to be: I have been up over mountains, and from the briney depths below; I had to become like you, so that you could become like me.

This is surely not your true self. Observe the observer. Take a moment to see that I have extended to you a great deal more love and understanding compared to so very slight a reproof, which you would have to justify your continued insults. See that is why, by lobbing even more stones at myself—which you quarry from the foundations of your own house—before blocking me so that I cannot defend myself, you flee from this, that is, your Truth.

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