The problem with "want" is reality. Until you "want" reality, you're pretty much confined to a bitch of a roller coaster ride - not to mention, pretty thoroughly screwed.

Reality has been creating, arranging, timing, sustaining, entertaining and keeping life interested in moving forward for as long as life has existed. It's actually exactly like the old joke about the drowned man at the pearly gates who disregarded two boats and a helicopter as he waited for God to save him. It's as if people think reality doesn't know them or that they exist separate from it. It's a bit...sort of...kind of...moronic, don't you think? To think that one exists outside of existence? Stands outside of reality, looking in?

I used to wonder what was under all of man's arrogance and it turns out that what lies beneath it is a whole other, much deeper depth of it. So many think man is "special" - that they know better than reality how reality should work - that reality is broken. The depth of their hubris boggles my mind and the pettiness of their whining astonishes me.

Nevertheless - imagine the ride and slide into the reality that is perfectly tuned to one's own form - from that particular nightmare! Magnificent!!