People everywhere are suffering and all day every day I hope that my daughter is alive living rough in the heat and smoke.

My mental health is in the shitter and my shrink has decided I am undeserving of care.

idk, the sky is literally falling and the world is on fire. I'm seeing everything collapse, and people suffering in ways that are so preventable. And fewer and fewer people are hoarding money that could literally solve world hunger, and yet they sit atop their scrooge mcduck gold coins and laugh as people die.

I feel so guilty for having it easier than so many others and there's nothing more I can do about it than what I am and everything's just a downward spiraling cesspool of greed and the destruction of human rights and dignity.

And having this stuck in my head for weeks and mourning some bullshit from decades ago:

Where are we? What the hell is going on? The dust has only just begun to form Crop circles in the carpet Sinking, feeling

And it's not long until it's my mom's birthday, and I am in prolonged grief, so that's just killing me. I could go see a therapist, but I am SO sick of listening to myself.

I know there are things in this world that are good, and people who are awesome, and nature is coming back at Chernobyl, but I'm just drowning rn. All this shit just confirms my shitty worldview.