I wasn't a bully. I was a shitty person to him when we were friends and and one of my biggest regrets in life happened when we tried to date for a few weeks.

I'll admit the first email I sent was lighthearted, but I didn't expect the reaction I got. If he had actually said something clear to me like you did to the person it would be different, but he didn't say anything.

I sent a completely different email the second time, but I'm sure he blocked me by then.

Also yes, I should absolutely worry about the fact that I was like that, because I don't want that to be the last memory he has of me. I'm not that person anymore and I don't even give a shit if he doesn't want to know anything about me, I just want to be able to say Hi to him once in a while and hear what's been going on with him.

Is it really worth it to you to not give someone at least a chance? Do you understand the pain you can put them through if they really care about you? or is that your final victory against them?