Which of the following is most important to you?

A) Your physical environment, money, having physical security, routine, predictability, material objects, time and energy, your living space or immediate environment.

My biggest value in life is self-preservation, which includes having lots of money for financial security, physical safety, and anything related to survival. I also hate wasting my time.

Q. What does it look like when you experience anger, what gets you angry, and how often do you experience it?

I get angry almost on a daily basis by any minor inconvenience since I have anger problems, but some things I hate the most are disrespect and wasting time. When angry, I have outbursts of rage, go on long sessions of complaining, sometimes hit / kick objects and scream, and confront people who make me mad if they deserve it. I experience anger attacks too (trembling hands, numbness, shortness of breath).

Q. What does it look like when you experience shame, what makes you ashamed, and how often do you experience it?

I’m not ashamed of many things and don’t often feel shame. The only thing I’m embarrassed about is having no dating experience because it’s looked down on. I experience it by turning concerned about what people think (but not excessively). I’m never insecure and am a confident person; I just have moments of thinking certain people might look at me in a negative light.

Q. What does it look like when you experience fear, what makes you fearful, and how often do you experience it?

I turn fearful when I have potential health conditions because I’m death phobic. I first research my symptoms then see a doctor if I think something could be wrong with my health. When I am afraid, I worry excessively and try to find a solution to my problem as quickly as possible. Besides from health, I don’t have many fears.

1. Do you experience frustration towards others or yourself for behaving poorly or inappropiately? Do you have strong ideas about what is right and wrong?

I experience frustration towards others and hold people to a high expectation (often too high). I usually don’t care what other people are doing unless it involves me or applies to me. I do judge people a lot though. I know what’s right and wrong, but I don’t care about morals; I only care about doing what’s best for me even if it’s wrong. I believe the ends justify the means.

1. Does flattering others and offering compliments come easily to you? Do you focus on the needs of others more than your own?

It is very hard to flatter others and offer compliments. I don’t like to give reassurance or listen to people venting. I focus on my needs way more than others and don’t like helping people unless it’s a super small favor, then I wouldn’t care much. I still wouldn’t offer help though.

1. Is focusing on tasks and getting things done efficiently important to you? Do you push aside emotions in favor of getting results?

Getting things done is important to me. I always finish the task as quickly as possible with minimal effort because I hate wasting time and energy on tedious things I don’t care about. In school, I always cut corners by cheating on exams, looking up homework answers online, and trading work with friends. My anger often gets in the way of my tasks, but I eventually put it aside to finish the task.

1. Do you tend to focus on your short-comings, feelings of sadness, and what is missing in your life? Do you feel lost?

I don’t focus on short-comings and am almost never sad. I don’t feel lost and the only thing missing in my life is my ideal body, which doesn’t make me sad but angry instead.

1. Do you try to limit the amount of time you spend interacting with people? Are you stingy with your time and energy? Do you prefer to observe rather than interact?

If I’m close to the person, I prefer spending lots of time with them. I’m only stingy with my time / energy and limit interaction with people I don’t care about. I prefer taking classes with groups of friends, but would rather spend breaks alone to do homework, so I can avoid doing it at home. I also don’t like when people try to spend breaks with me to talk about things I don’t care about such as venting about their relationship. I like interacting more than observing.

1. Do you analyze and interpret the meaning of events around you? Do you experience doubt, distrust, and anxiety? Do you anticipate and prepare for danger?

I don’t analyze or interpret events. I’m neither trusting or suspicious. I don’t have doubts often, only on occasions about an exam I’m unprepared for. My anxiety only comes from potential health problems. If I never had any symptoms of disease, I would almost never worry. I don’t exactly prepare for danger, but I do lock all my doors at home and own pepper spray since I was punched by a homeless before.

1. Do you often think about ideal scenarios for your future? Are you often planning for future events? Do you enjoy talking and telling stories? Do you prefer to keep things light and playful?

I like to fantasize about a future of being rich. I’ve also had fantasies about being the President or a big CEO, dating the most gorgeous celebrity, and having a perfect appearance. I plan too far into the future that it surprises my friends. Teachers have told me that I’m too young to be asking for career advice and planning so far ahead. I enjoy talking when it’s in my interests. I don’t have many stories to tell, but if I think I have a fun story then I do like telling it. I like keeping things light and playful until it’s time to get things done.

1. Do you prevent people from controlling you? Do you assert yourself easily? Are you direct? Do you feel the need for vengeance if you are hurt?

One of my biggest pet peeves is when people try to tell me what to do because it's my life so I do what I want. I hate unsolicited advice about what I should/shouldn’t do. I assert myself and voice my wants easily. Asserting myself against people isn’t as easy because I can't say things politely; I aggressively attack the person with words or ignore them. However if they disrespect me, I go off immediately (I have confronted many, even a substitute teacher and have lost friends). I’ve been told I’m a direct, blunt (but not rude) person who can be intimidating, which shocked me because my mom taught me how to filter myself since youth. I always seek vengeance against people who dare disrespect me. I've gotten revenge, and also fantasize revenge, beating up enemies, and wishing them a bad life.

1. Is being comfortable important to you? Are you adaptive and easy going? Can you go along with the agenda of others without complaint? Do you prefer to go with the flow, rather than make a fuss?

I like comfort but it’s not the most important thing to me. I don’t work at a comfortable pace; I strain myself to finish things quickly so I can have tons of free time. I’m not adaptive or easy going; my relatives tell my parents they can tell I’m not easy just by looking at my face. I can’t go with others’ agenda without complaining because I hate not getting things my way. I don’t like to go with the flow and I want to be in charge. Sometimes I desire drama and arguments for fun; I just don’t actually start drama with other people for no reason.