Honestly, sometimes I feel the same way. I never got the chance to "fall in love" with my boyfriend because we were friends, then roommates, when he begged me to let him sleep in my bed because he was lonely. It turned into a relationship even though I wasn't ready and I think I resent that, as well as other issues we've had. I don't think it's inherently wrong to feel that way unless you act on it or use it as an excuse to break up without trying to solve the problem. I would say that if you're feeling this way, you should try not to be in such a rush to buy a house together or get married because that seems a little ways away at this point. I would say in a long term relationship there are going to be times when it gets boring and you want that excitement again. I feel like in most situations, both parties don't try as hard as they did in the beginning (less sex, less wooing, etc), but you could try to talk to him about it. Tell him how you feel and make some suggestions on how it could be remedied. If you're the kind of person who likes date nights, suggest something like that. Even if you're quarantined, setting a specific day of the week to do something you both enjoy (dinner and a movie) would be a good way to do this.