I have asbergers and I’m really ugly. I’m a 26 year old virgin and women I meet ignore me at best and at worst view me with total contempt. I don’t blame them for feeling that way since that’s a normal way for a woman to react to someone like me but it’s exttemely depressing for me to feel attracted to the same women who look down on me. How do I deal with it?

In college my friends would always pick up girls and I’d naturally get left out since everyone knows I don’t have a chance. The girls my friends were friends with would act like I’m not in the room when I’m around. Sometimes I’d try to talk to girls like other college guys do but they’d be really uncomfortable and I’d feel shitty for basically forcing them to talk to me and I’d back off. I joined a student group that happened to have a lot of girls in it to try to meet people and make friends and the whole time I felt like a pathetic try-hard and I’m pretty sure everyone thought I was creepy and annoying. I met a girl in the group who I thought was really cool and who I wanted to get to know better (probably just because she was a pretty girl who was nice to me) but if she knew how I felt she’d probably either be disgusted or amused or both.

How am I supposed to feel about this other than extreme bitterness? I realize I’m not entitled to anything and it’s “outside my control” but that doesn’t make me feel any better. I want so badly to know how it feels to be with someone I like but the idea of a woman being attracted to me is totally pathetic and laughable. I work a shitty job right now and don’t even remember the last time I talked to a woman my age.