Aight, ready for the cringe lads?

Back in school I was a fat chubby nerd who had no self-esteem. Basically formal night was in a few months and I had no date, so naturally a friend of mine offered to set me up with a girl, originally I said no because just mentioning the word girl gave me a heart attack, anyways later on I agreed to meet with her and a group of her friends for lunch.

The night before meeting the girl, I was physically sick, I felt like I was about to vomit and only got 2 hours of sleep, I could not physically eat I was so nervous about meeting her.

Fast forward, on the train to the location where I was going I sat with the guy who was hooking me up with the girl in dead silence, he tried to make conversations with me and all I could do is awkwardly laugh and say yes or no.

We arrived at the place we were going for lunch and I could feel my heart pounding so fast I thought I was going to die, my body went completely numb and I felt increasingly sick.

He introduced me to the girl which you could tell was disgusted by my appearance (fat, had no sense of style, greasy curly hair, probably bright red from fear), I literally only said hi to her then went dead silent, we made no further conversation and I literally ended up rotating my body around so that I wasn't facing her to calm down, so basically a group of people standing around and me facing my back towards them all, none of them said anything back to me and I just stood there awkwardly in silence whilst they all talked.

Later on the guy hooking me up said me and the girl should hold hands, I held my hand out and she said she hates germs so she didn't want to hold hands, to break the ice I tried to start a conversation about the game Age of Empires and ended up going bright red because she had no idea how to respond.

tl:dr social anxiety use to rule my life.