I think what eludes most people about depression is that everyone feels a little bit sad at some point. Some people don't get that it's terminal. They felt sad at some point, and assume that's what depression amounts to.

It's not like, say, cancer for instance, where people can disconnect some of the symptoms with the illness. Everyone gets headaches, feels sore, etc, but most people wouldn't assume you can just think cancer away.

Depression is funny. I have a hard time putting into words just what it does to me. I mean, yeah, sure, I can rattle off a list of the symptoms. But to describe how it feels and what it does? I always come up short. That's why sometimes I can look at a painting, a picture, or a song, and think, yeah, that's it. But what's it for me, is not the same for everyone. Which is part of the problem that makes it just so hard to understand.

I've come to know the tell tale signs to avoid the rut that comes with it. Sometimes you dig a hole so deep, you just don't have the fight to claw your way out of it, honestly you're so far gone, that you just don't want to.

You always gotta be on your guard, I know I can't afford to slip again. I guess that's my motivation to do my part and stay vigilant. It's hard, but not as hard as the fall.