Have you ever felt alone? It's hard to articulate myself when I speak about this subject, but I have to reiterate many times that I find myself in the mindset where when I'm not constantly aware of this situation, other than it's just a theory that keeps me up on a Friday night.
I've always had this feeling since I was a child (it's not autism you fuck) that I was the only person in this world. The feeling has changed as I have aged to potentially the possibility of other people being trapped in this 'experiment' as I call it. I've felt love, I've set myself straight on one girl to the point where I feel like she is real. I know her, I've been with her for almost three years and if by some chance she is just a fabric of my imagination well then I have a pretty fucking cool imagination or if alien life then jesus christ you've sold me on your heart-warming loving girlfriend robot you've created.
What exists in this world is close to a philosophy I somewhat take to heart and that is Solipsism (the philosophical idea that only one's own mind is sure to exist). I believe in things I can clearly understand with no bias attached. That being said this theory doesn't impact my day-to-day life, if someone told me that they heard on the news that the U.S government is going to war with Saudi Arabia I'd beieve them with a certainty of 99.999999%. That said the reason why it'll never be 100% is because of the reality I live in where I cannot confirm the existence of things I've never seen, felt or heard for myself. I've never been to America or Saudi Arabia, I have no idea if they're real.
Where it gets a little bit crazy is the point where it doesn't really matter what people bring fourth to this discussion and try to prove me wrong on certain accounts, it only feeds this desire that out there I'm being tested. What the elicit response will be from an alien civilization would be to send out these plants (artificial humans that govern balance) to either agree with me or not.
A really simple way to explain what this all means is to think about how North Korea works; it governs its people by telling them certain facts and stripping away knowledge that they would otherwise not want their citizens to know (I know for a fact that some citizens in North Korea do know about the outside world but this is just an example). For instance if the North Korean government made up facts and you didn't know any better you would believe that its countries leader is Superman. You're in this environment which is so scary because to you, not knowing any better isn't even a thought that crosses your mind. Apply this to the current world we live in. North Korea is by no means a perfect way of dictating a country but a system where its much more controlled could easily beat into subjects heads about certain facts of reality.
I previously brought up what plants are (artificial humans that govern balance), I believe that if I am the only person in this world than the point of writing this up is just silly, like I said over the years I've come to terms with believing that I might not be the only person out there. Plants are used to make certain of a fact. Scientists, governments, painters, writers, dog walkers, runescape players (the scum that they are) and Manchester United fanatics (the scum that they are) are all plants used to govern balance in this world and make everything seem as 'normal' for us test subjects to observe and take mental notes. I have no idea why an alien would need this information or why my conciousness needs to create this simulated reality but fuck it, I could go on for hours about that shit.
The examples are use are going to be quite 'serial-killer' esq but screw it I want to express myself with no filter attached. How do I know that if I stab someone that the elicit response is them burst in agony and me opening up their body is actually going to contain all the organs I've learnt about from biology. Sure enough I'm never going to do it, like I said this theory doesn't impact my day-to-day life, it's just an interesting note. I've been told this is how certain things work, I've been told about gravity, I've been told about the Earth existing for millions of years, I've been given proof that I didn't quite understand because I never ventured out into those things. I've been told by several people that there is a god out there that so happened to grace Earth with their presence and gave us the gift of life. There are so many things I don't understand and that's my perspective of life, I want to learn. I'm eager, I'm always learning. I definitely don't take for granted just the ability to be human and explore things for myself. The Earth could be flat, but I don't believe that with a certainty of 99.9999%.
I don't think it's crazy to be cautious about only believing in things you observe yourself. With a 99.99999% certainty I believe that for less than $10 you can buy two cheeseburgers and a large fries/coke in America. I've never done it, I can clearly see it on this picture I'm looking at right now but I've never been to America, I don't even know if two cheeseburgers in a deal with only one coke and one fries should even be a thing?!
The more and more I reassure myself that I'm not the only one, the more and more that I can feel happy going to sleep at night. These late Friday night YouTube sessions of conciousness, space and smoking weed aren't doing me any good for my mental capacity but at least I'm expressing myself and it feels good to get this off my shoulders and to see what the elicit response is from you alien fucks.