I was a charming yet also, complaint kid. I am very negative, yet also, optimistic inside my mind. Extremely imaginative and highly creative.

When I was a kid, I was taught alot of things by my INTP dad. He said that "Weed is good", "Drugs are good for creativity", "Nothing is morally correct", etc.. alot of things that gave me an open-mind. But we parted ways cuz he and mom are not good for each other. So we didn't see each other everyday, only twice a month.

He always sent me cash and sent me to an expensive private school. But, we do not live together so I wouldn't say his influence is that strong.

I was 7th Grade that time when I was walking around the hallway, reading advocates' journal that was pasted on the school board. They say that weed causes brain damage, can decrease IQ points, etc.. and that made me so scared, really scared, that even if I experienced weed in 3rd year high, because of social pressure and exploration, I never developed any addiction. I am so scared of being stupid.. I really am..

All my life, I clinged on to "common knowledge" that's why I didn't develop any addiction. I would say.. "It's common knowledge that drugs are bad for you". I was always a mere observer of everyone around me, doing drugs. And I love to eat fried chicken with them, but I'll never touch what they touch. I would always look for coping mechanisms that will never let me have any dependence on any substance, such as, lavender essential oils, alternative medicine, and chemistry.

In my early 20s, I developed an unhealthy shopping habit. I am very materialistic and that was only my problem. I did drink, party, etc.. only for 3 months.. but never the dependence to a substance. An addiction.