I was friendzoned hard by the first girl I ever had a crush on because I was a fat socially awkward dork who had no idea what I was doing, then after many years I lost the weight and figured out what I was doing and somehow found myself in a position where I could be with her, but my self esteem was still so low that I just accepted that she still had a boyfriend and was basically using me for emotional stability and sexual release while leeching off her abusive boyfriend.

Then her little sister died in a car accident, very young and extremely tragic for the family, and she went no contact. I got to see her briefly with her boyfriend at her sister's funeral and that's the last time I saw her or heard from her.

I've gotten over a lot of dumb shit that's happened to me, but I still get heart palpatations if I spend too much time thinking about this.