Yep. Found out that as much I liked the idea of being in a relationship, every time I found a partner I ended up destroying all of my friendships and ruining my life. I suffered a lot of emotional abuse as a kid, and thus don't know how to properly express myself or my emotions, and no one's been patient enough to put up with me when I'm like that.

I've had friends I used to date tell me how much more appreciative they are of my friendship after dating me because of how unhinged I was as a boyfriend compared to how relaxed I am as a friend.

And honestly, I feel for them. I don't want to make my friends uncomfortable, yknow? So I'd rather live my life with a hundred happy friends than one miserable girlfriend.