I'm working hard to get my shit together so I can finally afford to live alone like I've always dreamed, and then once I get everything in place and feel like my life is stable I'm going to kill myself.

There's nothing anyone can do to stop me anymore. I have no interest in reaching out or seeking help, and if I was ever thrown into a hospital against my will, I would just reluctantly work with the therapists or whoever and slowly recover, and then kill myself the first chance I got once I was out.

There's no specific reason I'm doing this, but there's not enough to make me want to keep living. I've heard all the arguments, and talked enough with people about my life and how I feel, and this is the choice I'm making fully conscious of the consequences.