I hate my best friend. I have for at least a year now. shes extremely unsupportive, only wants to talk about herself and her relationship problems. recently I told her I needed some space and explained how I was feeling about the friendship and I'll message her when I'm feeling better. I'm never going to message her.

Another thing I've never said out loud except once is when I was 14 I was sexually assaulted by an older boy while at school. I told the principal and he didn't believe me, so I never spoke of it out loud again. I felt like there was no point because if the principal didn't believe me, neither would my parents or the cops. By the time I realized someone else might have helped me it was too late so I just don't talk about it. That wasn't the first time something like that happened to me, but it was the worst at the time. It wasn't the last either. I don't speak of those either

One more thing. With all the talk about Weinstein and those #MeToo posts on twitter and facebook lately, I've become increasingly suicidal because of my own experiences. I will probably tell someone out loud about this if it gets to the point where I may actually do anything, but I don't want to have to say why.