I think I know when it started, and there is almost nothing I wouldn't do to go back to that moment and make it right. If only I could give myself that chance. Because she's not going to give me one.

I know that feeling too well, give anything to change one conversation, one moment to slap myself across the face and realize what I could lose.

Didn't think I'd find something relate-able in this thread, boy was I wrong.

I've had this happen maybe 8 months ago, completely cut off after about a year long 11/10 friendship. It was probably my fault, but I wouldn't have know it. After many... many nights spent thinking about it I came to the conclusion that it fucked me because I had no closure, it just ended. Did I deserve closure? probably not. Would it have made my life easier? I think so, but it doesn't matter, I had to deal with the situation from my corner, I had to get my head straight.

I would tell you ways I made it easier but there wasn't any, my other friends were as sympathetic as a sack of potatoes and only served to make me mad at them. It only gets easier to forget about it and easier to not remind yourself. Time doesn't heal wounds, it just makes you forget where they came from, and I sadly have a good memory.

As it stands my life is moving at about the same pace as it was before I met her, now I'm just aware of what my life was missing, and it feels like a hole is left.

All I will say is people have their own demons, their own mental battles they endure with themselves. Maybe she needs the space to remain the healthy person you came to appreciate. I was going to delete all this because its horrible advice and you shouldn't listen to anything i say, but I at least wanted you to know I FEEL YA BRO.