From my point of view, she’s embarrassed, I’d advise to let it rest for a few days and then calmly open up a conversation on it. if she’s voiced that she doesn’t prefer for you to watch it then she probably feels really bad. Many women grapple with comparing themselves to women in daily life and those on websites, so it’s reassuring to know your partner won’t engage in porn. However, that doesn’t mean the urge isn’t their for us.

I personally will admit to having done this, preferring my partner to not watch it when I have occasionally done so. It’s an odd mental relationship of knowing that I don’t prefer these people, it’s just to get off. And while it is the seme for men too, it’s quite difficult to get past that sometimes.

Took me a long time to confront that and work through it with my boyfriend. Our agreement was that if we’re near each other then let’s resort to that, but if we’re apart or whatever, then that’s okay for what it’s needed for.

This will settle and a discussion is crucial to developments like this, embarrassment will go away. Approach it carefully so she doesn’t get defensive (I would, given a certain tone). Good luck and I hope all goes well!