Hey there,

I think you should give yourself more credit. Slightly coherent rambling? I definitely think you were slightly above slightly coherent rambling. It's downright charming, almost endearing.

Did you feel like you were interviewing for a job when you wrote all that out? Because I definitely feel like I'm interviewing for one. I'm not even sure where to start. I guess my story sounds similar to yours with slight variations. A husband that doesn't even know I'm alive and if he noticed we'd both realize he doesn't know anything about me. A bedroom in ICU. Kids that are amazing but make everything that much more complicated.

What am I interested in? Someone that's interested in me. That thinks about me, can't wait to talk to me, wants to know who I am and what I love.

I am one of those people that works hard to make you feel loved and desired and thought about and I just wasn't that in return I guess.

This isn't all that much info, I suppose, but it's a start. We can always talk more :)