When I started out I thought I had to do all these things to get God to like me. I was messing up all the time. (I still mess up). I thought I could only experience God through other people so I was hanging off of people trying to get them to give me something, I was striving so hard to please God. Praying, worshiping,Praying, pathetic attempts at fasting, praying, worshipping. Nothing.

Then I stopped. Jesus died for all humanity past, present and future. He took all our sins on himself and he finished it once for all. He did it for you, as you. All your sins past present and future have been dealt with on the cross. There is only grace and love left. When I stopped trying, when I stopped looking to others to give me God, I found him in me. God is in you as he is in everything. He loves you, he hears you. I didn’t and don’t have visions of angels and heaven and trumpets. I haven’t seen him in person. But I have had a quiet peace when I should have been having a meltdown. I don’t experience supernatural things or miracles. But I’ve had dreams that made me feel better about things. I’ve opened the bible and found peace and comfort. God does speak to you. He will speak to you in a way that is personal to you. He will speak through people, nature, the bible, through things that interest you. Faith is trust. Trusting God that he is with you, that he did and does what he says he did and will do.