"She grounded me for the next month and took away my ps4, she siad she wont by me a ps5 either. I told my mom she is the worst mom ever and she got really sad saying she's jsut tyring to protect me from the dаngers. I told her she's being controlling and i hate her for it."
YTA. Majorly. I know you don't realize this because you are only 14 but I don't think you have any idea the dagger of hurt you just thrust into your mother's heart. And I realize that I don't have teenagers, my kids are still young, but let me give you some insight that you won't have until you yourself have kids (or some similar relationship).
She raised you from this little thing, she was your favorite person in the world at one point. She would stroke your hair when you were sleeping and promise that she would always love and protect you. She does her best to raise you to be a happy, healthy, compassionate man who will find his own life and love someday.
SHE JUST LOST HER HUSBAND. Even if it was a year ago that wound is still raw. Her eldest son is away in college and the love of her life is gone and you are all she has left around her right now. She obviously does not know everything, she may make mistakes. But she is doing her best. The world is going to shit, especially politically, right now. More-so than you may even realize. I know I didn't care about politics when I was 14. That "соnservative prорaganda" may not be in that game like she is thinking but it is a REAL THING that is brainwashing people and tearing families apart right now.
I bet she stays up at night worrying and hoping everything will be ok for her children in the future. I bet she even cries some nights, I would be surprised if she hasn't cried at least once over what you told her. She feels hurt and betrayed by her son she has spent a good portion of her life raising and loving. She is probably questioning her worth as a mother right now and may withdraw within herself.
"She grounded me for the next month and took away my ps4, she siad she wont by me a ps5 either."
Oh boo fucking hoo. You are 14. You are old enough to have some compassion for those other than yourself. I'm 30 and a gamer and I wouldn't have bought you a PS5 either. You need to look within yourself and try to look past YOUR point of view and see it from your mothers. You need to apologize to her and try to do better. She lets you play all sorts of games and you know it.
"I told my mom she is the worst mom ever" "I told her she's being controlling and i hate her for it."
Do you truly think you mean that? Would you wish her to disappear and live by yourself and never EVER see her again? Deep down she knows you don't mean it, she hopes you don't mean it. My 5 YEAR OLD says things like that "I'm never going to play with you again!". Things that you say in a fit of anger but don't really mean. You are old enough to rein yourself in and realize that your words, and especially your words, can affect your mother more than you ever thought possible.
YTA. You may not have seen this as a very big deal and can move past it easy OP. And I obviously don't know you or your mother, but I can tell you from a mother's point of view that there is a very good chance that she may not be able to get over those words as easy. PLEASE talk to her. PLEASE apologize to her and tell her you love her and have a calm conversation about everything. In the end you both will be glad you did.