I'm sorry but I'm kind of confused and I can't figure out how to clarify what it is I think you're saying so I'm gonna break your comment down , but I'm really not doing it in that condescending reddit dickheady way I promise lol

Maybe I was projecting but I thought he was a lot less dark in S5 pre A Hole in the World.

Do you think he's a lot less dark pre AHITW because AHITW is

I can't think of any times when he was extremely dark before falling into despair from that event that didn't directly involve people he cared about being in danger.

I'm kinda confused. I think it's the "people he cares about in danger" part. Are you saying in S5 specifically you can't think of a darker time until AHITW happened? Or are you saying you can't think of any time ever

, making it out to be, then at some point don't you think he'd think to himself "remember when I held a human captive in my closet and made her shit and piss in a bucket? Wtf was up with that? Doesn't really seem like me..." right? lol in which case he'd probably start getting suspicious and all