This was a fantastic response, thank you. I really just need to remind myself that what's meant to happen, will happen, and worrying the way I am is just insanely unhealthy. He's been honest and open about everything thus far, so I need to just take it at face value and let the natural current do its thing.

He knows I'll be there for him whenever he needs it, I've told him multiple times. He's got a ride or die in this one, for sure lol. He's recently been through a lot of stuff too, since knowing him. Each and every time I have reminded him I'm here for him no matter what.

While I know he is trying to work on himself, a big part of me is just thinking he's terrified to get hurt again, he vaguely touched on that when we first met. Gave me the backstory to his 2 big relationships that fucked him up. I truly believe if I was simply a fuck buddy, we wouldn't be at this point and never would have had those conversations. Thank you for helping me reassure myself of that with your comment.

I really think everything is going to be fine in the end, I ultimately needed a space to get my feelings and thoughts from my head, to something I can process visually. This big anxiety really just started after I told him I loved him on Friday night. I wasn't anticipating telling him, so when I realized what I did I think I freaked out and assumed the worst lol. My general anxiety about it hasn't been present much at all until now, because we've always talked about everything. But when he said he needed some time after I revealed the big L, I went into my typically "OH GOD I HAVE RUINED EVERYTHING" when in reality he just needs time to think and process the big L bomb I just threw at him, lol.

I'm already feeling better and even though I was nervous posting this, I'm glad I did.