Yeah , I talked to a few people , some of them said the same , i know , that it can't be called love , because i haven't met her . Also , there were many points which i forgot to add , i mentioned them in the reply to other comments,pls look at them , then you would get to know the full case .
What I'm going to write is already mentioned in reply to other comments, pls also see them , i will writing something relating to what you said .
So , the girl about whom I'm talking about , also has a vlogs in her YouTube channel . Also , you would know that vlogs give us a family like feeling , it feels like they are talking to us . Also , she has many of her photos in her I'd , in some of them , she had very little or minimal makeup , but she was still looking gorgeous.The girl 690k followera on instagram , also the vlog which i was talking about , through that i got to know mor about her , if you had watched vlogs earlier then you would know .
Also I know that a person can't look beautiful all the time , that why i am not concerned about her other images in which she is looking a little different. But here I'm overthinking and obsessing on a video , in which i found her to be really cute + i liked that very much . Also , you know , i got this type of feeling after a very long time , so it hurts when it feels like it is fading away . Like , earlier i only thought that , only girls with Sexually attractive features are attractive , but this girl was truly aesthetically pleasing.
I agree with your point that this can't be called true love . But pls also read my given points . I know I'm kinda only liking her looks , and love involves knowing each other , liking their personalities . But , i also liked her personality when i saw her vlog. I know this is kinda wierd , like i also know , ppl don't show their actual life in it . But she was trult aesthetically pleasing.She is a girl whom i like even i don't have lust . No sexual feelings .
Also i didn't ruined my sleep cycle , i was woke up the last day before the night which mentioned, that's why I wasn't feeling sleepy. Also liking her isn't getting in my way of studies , but this roller coaster of emotions is getting . I think i haven't still explained the points more clearly , but i think it's more than infatuation.
I think , my overthinking, anxiety and hormones are currently affecting me . What would you say , but i think she is sure my crush , without any lust.
Also more regarding that roller coaster of emotions, its like , some times i get back my emotions , and some times for back . It's happening since two days.
But now i think I'm kinda getting your point that I'm just obsessing over her beauty over personality and calling it love .
Okay , so this time I'm going to be clear about what i felt i had anxiety. So , some intrusive thoughts came to my mind that she looks like another girl who is a clout chaser , and some intrusive thoughts came saying that she looks like a p star , but I'm sure she doesn't. So this is about the intrusive thoughts which were saying the she looks like someone , but i also had some , which were saying that , she isn't beautiful i thought her to be . And now I'm trying to prove that thought wrong . That's the only thing .and also some things which i mentioned earlier .
Well i would like you to give her I'd , it's nehaal naseem .Well I'm 16 , she is 17 , i ain't pedophile. Also she would turn 18 this year . Also i would recommend to search her on Instagram only , because google has some random photos of her of childhood, also she looks different in the photos present on google .
I trust you that's why I'm telling you , i request pls don't sexualise her . I know you would'nt . But still , my mind is fked up , pls don't mind this .I'm really sorry if I hurted your feelings.