Listen up bud. I couldn't simply pretent that I was happy for her. When someone you have a really fucking toxic crush on tells you she is dating up and she is thinking you two are really good friends so she expects you to be happy for her. You have three options. You either lie, you ignore or you are honest. I have been holding back for 1.5 years I couldn't pretent or lie. I don't want to ignore her and leave her angry and confused. I decided to end it all. I knew it was a lost cause from now on. It was either this or keeping up the facade. There are limits for gow long tou keep up such a facade and some emotions you can't hide or you will fucking break