Like I said I probably missed quite a few key things because my mind is still all over the place so I can't think of every little detail just the stuff that's been constantly bothering me going through my head as soon as I wake up. It was my first serious relationship so I guess I was just pretty blind to whatever was obviously wrong because I don't know what or how things went wrong. Just because I was there doesn't mean I know what happened. She was pretty good at hiding whatever was bothering her. Whenever I would ask what's wrong she would either tell me it's nothing or tell me what was bothering her and I'd try to do whatever I could to try and cheer her up or at least help the situation a little. But she never said anything was bothering her about me or our relationship. Mainly just work stuff or bills. I guess there were a few red flags like texting her previous ex occasionally even though she knew I was pretty against that because I was afraid of her going back to him. I would take the blame for almost everything that happened and that's probably why I don't know what happened because there's quite a few different situations. Was I to clingy? Was I to jealous? Was it something I said or did and didn't realise it hurt her? Was it something I wasn't doing? I'm not asking for advice on how to find out what I or her did wrong. Just what other people have done to get past something like this. I've took up hobbies, I try to distract my mind by playing games or going online, or stay busy helping raise my 5 younger adopted siblings, or going out to hang with friends on the weekends. But at the end of the day my mind is always racing about her.