Yes, it's the most difficult job I've ever had in my life. We just have to get through today, sometimes we have to get through the moment. Sometimes I have to pretend it's a game and the rules don't ever change: She will pee through the pad protector, the rubber sheet, and I will do three loads of laundry each day. I will change her poo diaper, it will be extremely messy, and last all day long because she can't push. She will make a mess at the dinner table and chew and throw food all over the place. She will pull all the leaves off my ficus tree even if I move it. She will not take a nap. She will walk around back and forth and make me worry that she will fall. I will feel guilt for wishing I could be somewhere else enjoying my life.