Being viewed as physically attractive while also being autistic sucks

Yes, I am a classically handsome male. I have a really square jaw which people seem to like and comment on. It hasn't gotten me too far. I did some work in the lower levels of the film industry, almost entirely based on my looks and willingness to show up. But I don't have the conversational skills to back up anything and can't network or make friends effortlessly like other people do. Dating-wise I often got used and discarded very quickly, one girl who was more understanding than most said to me once that I was one of the few guys who probably understood what it was like to be a piece of meat. I had more success back when I first entered adulthood as it was just before social media, dating apps, and especially texting became the norm. When there were actual phone calls and physical dates I could do OK, but socialization today requires a constant stream of pithy remarks, complete understanding of nuance, lots of time and energy keeping up with pop culture and memes, and essentially a lot of mind reading and perfect timing. It's pretty much impossible for someone like me. I got ghosted via text so many times that I developed a phobia about sending them that still exists. Also, I think being an attractive male gets me a lot of disdain from other men, most of whom my age are already falling apart physically. I am always out of place because the things I like to do are not the things and places that young, beautiful people flock to, and I'm usually alone. These days, I dress down as much as I can to try to hide looking good. I often wear a ratty old baseball hat, scraggly five o'clock shadow and work boots, so I don't get the model comments anymore, but I think I still stick out like a sore thumb in beer belly and cargo shorts America.

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