I'm a very Introspective person and I try to talk to Allah often. Sometimes I may have questions and the most merciful will send a sign answering that very question. I've been very indecisive whether or not to used the apps, I thought I should tie my camel some how since I hit 31,like put myself out there. I usually don't do things that go against my gut,but I thought I should be proactive in the search. I came across a young youtuber I used to watch (she did curly hair content).The video was titled "I can't have kids?" To sum it up,when she was teenager she wasn't developing as fast as other girls,so she persuaded her parents to take her to a specialist who misdiagnosed her as barren. For a decade she lived her life with the certainty that she won't ever be a mum. This forced her to be Introspective ,redefine herself and what makes her valuable as a women. Eventually,she took a second opinion and it turned out that none of that was true. She was angry at first,but she thought deeper and realised the importance of her experience. She realised that the fact that she tried to rush growing up,made her find something she didn't want,hence the importance of patience. She also realised that that decade forced herself to truly love herself, to unlearn how to live for society standards and to be strong. I deleted the app and said tawaltoo alal Allah. It's insanity to go back to a place where you had weird experiences and I value being discrete. I'm still open minded, but I think I finally reached "it is what it is " mentality.